i am in.

another warning to anyone who might happen across this blog. TMI is the theme.

at my last annual I had every intention of talking to my doctor about my desire for pregnancy. maybe this isn't something that requires a great deal of chatting. but she said two things to me when i mentioned this. get some prenatal vitamins (duh), go make another annual appt, maybe i'll see you sooner.

i was disappointed. i don't know if i wanted dr.h to hug me and hold my hand and tell me step by step what i should do. okay i knew that wouldn't happen but i expected something different. and it has bugged me this entire time.
i probably should have been given some advice maybe lose some weight, here is a script for the vitamins which might be more affective than the walgreens brand i have been taking. or maybe i am looking for a finger to point.

so i followed my gut talked to my best friend and decided after 8 months of no success, i would not wait till I am pregnant to switch doctors which i had every intention of doing.

I made a phone call and expected to have to be approved but i have an appt in march to get a basic exam and discuss the game plan.

i feel hopeful.

diet diet diet

im sitting at home with a thin crust light cheese pizza. i have been wanting pizza all damn week. i have been eating well and not exercising. i had a rough day at work so i ordered said pizza. yum.

every choice i make i make in hopes of having a baby. i barely drink. i take vitamins. i eat healthy. i don't make concrete vacation plans in hopes ill be pregnant.
i eat drink sleep baby having. i have gone beyond baby fever. i have baby disease.

i really enjoyed doing fight for air climb last year. however, i did not do it this year because i did not want to sign up knowing we were trying to make baby happen. i did not think 30 flights of stairs and pregnancy mixed.

now i know i could have done it, kept training been in better shape because it did not happen.

now i have two 5ks i am considering training for. my first thought when these were presented to me was ... what if i get.... oh i've done this before.

so i am not doing it. i am signing up. i am training...

many women have gone on with their normal lives and gotten pregnant. i am going to try better at this.

here is to fun, running, and hopefully when the time is right baby makin!