totally awesome workout scheduele

Okay real quick.. my workout scheduele starting next monday!

Monday
6:00am- Power Plunge
6:15pm- Turbo Kick

Tuesday
5:00- Training
6:15pm- Turbo Kick or Zumba at 6:00

Wednesday
6:00- Power Plunge
8pm- Workout on machine (stairs, eliptical, treadmill)


Thursday
5:00- Training
6:00pm- Turbo Kick

Friday
6:00am- Power Plunge
6:00pm- Workout with John

Saturday
Training workout/ Machine Cardio

Sunday- OFF

Food Daily Plan MWF

Before workout- Banana/Shake
After AM workout- Yogurt/ Breakfast Cliff Bar
Lunch: Soup and Salad and Fruit
Snack: Hummus and Carrots and shake
Dinner: protein carb veggies
Snack: Pudding or Fruit

NO WORKOUT in am
Egg/protein/Fruit
Lunch: Soup Salad Fruit
Snack: hummus and Carrots and shake or cottage cheese and tomato or pretzels and string cheese
Dinner: protein carb veggie (ie Chicken veggies and sweet potato)
Snack: Apple


suggestions? helpful hints? and yes i will eat soup everyday.

i have to do 90 minutes of cardio a day 2 classes would help with that. this will change in the summer because i think peaches needs to run some, she is looking a bit chunky.

for my loyal followers

Tomorrow i start detoxing. i kind of started today then i realized i had some spinach alfredo pizza in the fridge leftover from my thanksgiving weekend pigout.

i couldn't waste that. no sir.

so today i went to work without a breakfast plan.. i didn't eat till 11:30 (i wake up at 5am so by 11:30 i am STARVING) then i made a small side salad... and drank my third glass of tea... i then went pee like three times. when i got off work i thought i was going to die so imagine my own suprise when i stopped everything on my way of out shop n save to grab a banana out of my cart and inhaled most of it before i even got out to my car... then i grabbed an apple that was inhaled before i even got home.

THEN i came home and ate the pizza.

lesson: starve all day, lose will power. a real problem i've had since having this job. nothing healthy to eat then i am STARVING and will eat everything in site once my defenses are weekend.

tomorrow i will pack a banana and apple and some carrots.

i can't pack a cold or hot lunch because i am not allowed any storage place at my most horrific job.

speaking of, being good will be so much easier once i work at a place that ALLOWS to me bring in my own food. when i am given a proper break.

i can't wait to be done. he is the worst boss i have ever had. he actually trumps them all tenfold.

my life is going to be so much better in 1.5 weeks. i am happy.

work, working it, and broke as a joke

so, i am finally seeing the fruits of my labor...

we found an apartment
we are working out
we are eating right
john is home

i lost some weight....

and.. we are still broke. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!


my job also really sucks all the sudden. well lets say i was warned by numerous people that my boss is crazy and mean.. but he just started being this way towards me. he also has serious issues managing his money apparently (bouncing paychecks) makes us clock out for every break we take (even by law we are to get a 15 min paid break... for eight hours.. so imagine working 16 hours on a 15 minute break), i over heard him ask my supervisor "why do you need a day off?" (he hadn't had one at the time in a month).. neither had two other employees... he yelled at me for not returning a call to work on my day off and then TOLD me i was working overtime next week (the week i am moving back to springfield) so i am on the hunt for a new job all while tourturing myself at my current job by working over time like a fool. but my overtime is the average persons normal wage. FML... i can't win... after this dream wedding happends (and it will) i am going back to school... i will have a wonderful day though followed by a vacation! and look ill look beautiful

i ordered THE dress

a few weeks ago i dragged john to a bridal event. At said event i got a gift card to david's bridal and they set up an appointment to look at dresses. i said from DAY 1 "i am NOT getting my dress at david's bridal.. I will support local businesses, I will not have something seen in 100 ads of 100 bridal magazines.. NO NO NO"

But i figured 1. Candices has GREAT bridesmaid dresses but they only have silk beaded wedding dresses.. so to be convient, I would look.

I looked, i tried, i found the dress of MY DREAMS.

and i ordered it.. 2 sizes smaller.

not three. two. i am a liar. and actually i ordered it in my size, but in bridal sizes.. two sizes bigger. ..

SO.. i haven't stepped up. I have stepped down. This week has been hell. i have clocked 45 hours this week and it is wednesday. I am tired, worn, out... and still very lonely.

so john returns to my life next week and we will eat right and exercise. UNTIL then i am tired, exhausted, and didn't go to PT this week because my body said NO. I spent a great deal of time in tears.. because I am so stressed out about money, apartments, being here alone...

however, in the back of my mind i know i have severe pms added with a serious case of seasonal depression the end of october till mid november.

so i am sending my trainer an email, apologizing.. but this week was my mental break. i can't quit working for a week.. but i can just give myself some time to relax and not stress about working out... bad call? possibly. but my mental health is saying TAKE A BREAK FROM ONE THING...
i have to keep looking for a new home.. i have to keep planning the wedding (by working to pay for it)... so this is what i gave up.

NOV 1, 2010. HERE GOES NOTHING.

my dress is ordered time to make it fit. and john will be next to me now.

side note: losing my father has been harder on me this year than any other. it is a terrible thing being asked "who is walking you down the aisle?" and not being able to say my dad. I think it is harder for me to deal with his death because of him not being here, meeting john..

but i have the best mom in the world... i just wish i had the complete unit here. i miss him more each day as it gets closer. Bittersweet.

a new day

I brought a breakfast and lunch to work composed of only healthy snack foods I'll have time to eat.

I'm going to hit the treadmill in my living room after work and I am making a realistic budget and applying for pt retail jobs for Christmas.

I'm Also not drinking but going to be more social so I hope my friends want to go for walks.

I'm also going to be packing soon.... I hope

im one more crisis away..

i am on the verge of being the earliest bridezilla ever.

I am NOT happy with my progress. I am so stressed. my job doesn't help.. not one bit.

I need more money, a new house, a wedding to be paid for, to be skinnier, and mostly i just feel very very lonely. this blog wasn't meant to do anything but talk about my wedding, my fitness goals, and personal training.

however i am lonely, broke, fat, and unhappy.


what is a girl to do. will i have bridesmaids who still like me come june? will i have a man who can put up with my attitude come june? will i have money to pay for the wedding? will i get a much deserved honeymoon after? will my dress fit? will i have wasted all the PT money?

I AM NOT HAPPY!

Goals for this week:
1. Set a budget
2. Find another second job
3. work out daily
4. give up drinking for the most part
5. be social
6. do a new resume
7. find a new place to live...

BAKERS HEAVEN/BRIDES HELL

Dear God! THIS is why i can't lose weight! I make these delicious treats for all to enjoy at the centrum cafe, all except me..

PS. I love Glee. which has nothing to do with this blog. but i do.

Chubster

I feel pretty gigantic. Our engagement pictures are this week and i am not too pleased about this. i wish i hadn't put on so much weight. Training is going better i just have to get motivated to go on my off days.. and go hard.. i am just so tired. I quit one of my jobs to get my self back into a doable scheduele till after we move. but i volunteered to work a gigantic amount of overtime a few weeks ago, so once that starts i don't know what I will do. I think i am going to have to figure out lunches i can pack that are healthy and work without refridgeration or heating up...

Everytime I wanted to scream during Personal Training today i kept telling myself pretty in white pretty white, john at the end of the aisle.

Im on this folks more determined to get my diet under control now. Today was pretty good. just have to watch the little bites.. try this nicole.. try this.. my job is a real obstacle.

today at work i made about a zillion calories worth of buttercake and brownies.... totally crappy.

I need work out buddies STAT!

Taking the lunge

I hate my trainer. He is nice, knowledgeable, organized, has a way of convincing me he knows what's best for me..... And I hate him.

Over the years, after being called a crybaby for so long I hardend up... But my tough exterior has taken a few hits. Namely during my third round of lunges during pt Thursday. It wasn't a cry of pain or emotion of how hard it was. It was that the lunge demonstrated working so hard and having nothing to show for it.
Defeated.

I work hard and every time a bit of money gets saved..... Something comes up! I know, life! Get used it miller!

It reminded me of running the mile in jr high... Defeat!

But I'll make those my lunges my bitch & I'll run a damn mile... In time... Getting back into shape is harder than never being in shape. Each step is a reminder of how far I let my self slip. But I'm back and going to make one hot bride.

insane?

My name is Nicole Miller. i lost 125 lbs as of september of last year. i fell in love with my future husband... and have since put back on some of that weight. I will not say how much.. but its enough. so i've put off taking engagement pictures and of course, trying on gowns. But i can't avoid this forever. at the end of october i go in for my first appointment, if i find a dress, i will order it in a size much smaller than what i am. I have 9 months to get my ass in shape.

SO... i decided to give up the chair covers and a few other wedding dreams to give myself a personal trainer..

now i have to manage my diet, but all the foods i ate the past 2 years are disgusting so i have to do this an all new way.... and work in a bakery...

this will track my progress....