Clomid round two....

I thought I ovulated last month I got a faint line and after weeks of seeing nothing I freaked out. I knew better, I knew dark line. But I was hopeful, too hopeful. The day my cycle started I cried, sobbed... I went to work the next day with tears in my eyes every 20 minutes. I couldn't call the doctor but I needed to with the holiday weekend so I could get my next dosage.i talked to the nurse she said Dr. G was on vacation but they would call me if he got to his messages. 20 minutes later I got a call. Dr. wanted to increase my clomid and get some levels. I also researched some other side effects I have been having which can actually prohibit the clomid from working. I have armed myself with new tools and am going in knowing the increase will make me crazier, hotter, more emotional outbursts. In other news I'm beginning a challenge to sort my clomid emotions to useful methods. I am going on a fertility diet. Hardcore till October. These hormones have to be sorted productively. More to come on this.

Romance

there is nothing that will suck the romance out of a marriage more than trouble with conception. Currently I have horrible cramping and am hunched in my bed praying this is just my body gearing up to ovulate. Last week the hot flashes returned and I was moody and full of anxiety (side effects). This week my attitude is better but every afternoon I try to hold my afternoon pee to come home and pee in a cup to check for ovulation. I haven't gotten a positive still. I am going to check daily until next cycle. Ugh. After much thinking this might be my last month on clomid if I do not get a positive ovulation. People say when you stop trying is when it happens... But they say that when you stop looking for love you find it. I was always looking for love and I will never stop trying. I just don't think clomid is working for me. I need to re analyze and try new techniques. Right now I just look at my friends daughter and know there is reasons to never give up. Besides John and i finally found a boys name we like.