for my loyal followers

Tomorrow i start detoxing. i kind of started today then i realized i had some spinach alfredo pizza in the fridge leftover from my thanksgiving weekend pigout.

i couldn't waste that. no sir.

so today i went to work without a breakfast plan.. i didn't eat till 11:30 (i wake up at 5am so by 11:30 i am STARVING) then i made a small side salad... and drank my third glass of tea... i then went pee like three times. when i got off work i thought i was going to die so imagine my own suprise when i stopped everything on my way of out shop n save to grab a banana out of my cart and inhaled most of it before i even got out to my car... then i grabbed an apple that was inhaled before i even got home.

THEN i came home and ate the pizza.

lesson: starve all day, lose will power. a real problem i've had since having this job. nothing healthy to eat then i am STARVING and will eat everything in site once my defenses are weekend.

tomorrow i will pack a banana and apple and some carrots.

i can't pack a cold or hot lunch because i am not allowed any storage place at my most horrific job.

speaking of, being good will be so much easier once i work at a place that ALLOWS to me bring in my own food. when i am given a proper break.

i can't wait to be done. he is the worst boss i have ever had. he actually trumps them all tenfold.

my life is going to be so much better in 1.5 weeks. i am happy.

work, working it, and broke as a joke

so, i am finally seeing the fruits of my labor...

we found an apartment
we are working out
we are eating right
john is home

i lost some weight....

and.. we are still broke. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!


my job also really sucks all the sudden. well lets say i was warned by numerous people that my boss is crazy and mean.. but he just started being this way towards me. he also has serious issues managing his money apparently (bouncing paychecks) makes us clock out for every break we take (even by law we are to get a 15 min paid break... for eight hours.. so imagine working 16 hours on a 15 minute break), i over heard him ask my supervisor "why do you need a day off?" (he hadn't had one at the time in a month).. neither had two other employees... he yelled at me for not returning a call to work on my day off and then TOLD me i was working overtime next week (the week i am moving back to springfield) so i am on the hunt for a new job all while tourturing myself at my current job by working over time like a fool. but my overtime is the average persons normal wage. FML... i can't win... after this dream wedding happends (and it will) i am going back to school... i will have a wonderful day though followed by a vacation! and look ill look beautiful